As I write that title, I feel as though a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. If someone told me two and a half years ago I would be writing those words, I would have laughed; to be honest I probably would have cried. I was in such a dark and broken place back then. I was lost with no direction, no hope or no desire. My world around me had crumbled in such a way, that I thought it could never be rebuilt. Fast forward to present day.... I THANK GOD for every broken piece and every tear I have shed.
Yes, many of you might think that I am crazy...and you are probably right. However, it is from my brokenness that I have found myself...found beauty. A beauty that is worth every struggle, and every sleepless night. I have learned to lean on God first, not to try to figure it out myself. Although there are times more often than I would like to admit; that I still try to figure it out on my own. None the less, I am quickly reminded that leaning on my own logic and reasoning often leads to a disaster. But, I have a God that is merciful and gracious. He is there to pick me up, brokenness and all. He surrounds me with His protections and unconditional love every single day. Glory to God... He is good and he does good, not sometimes but ALL of the time!!
You [God] are good and do only good;teach me your decrees.
Psalm 119:68
My brokenness has led me down a path that I am so grateful for. I have a wonderful church home, where I can grow and blossom. From this I have established many new friendships and have been given many new opportunities...opportunities and friendships that I would not have been blessed with if I had not gone through what I had. I can look back and see God working at each and every step in this journey that I am on.
At the beginning of this year our pastor's message at church was "Blessed to be a Blessing" it was a powerful message, one that has changed my perspective not only on 2014, but my life in general. My brokenness has allowed me to reach out to people and make a connection. These connections have changed my life... these connections are God connections. He knew I would need this strong and amazing people in my life to help and guide me carry out His will for my life.
I am a single mother of three handsome little boys that challenge and bless me daily. I am so thankful for them, and all they teach me about life. I am thankful that God has trusted me and allowed be to watch and help them grow in Him. I am blessed by my full time job, that allows me to provide for my family. I am blessed for the many friendships that I have gained from this journey. I am thankful that I am part of a life group that is there for me through the good, the bad and the ugly. I am thankful for the friends that I can reach out to at midnight, because I feel the darkness closing in on me. I am thankful to be part of a women's ministry, and the life changing fellowship it has provided. And most of all I am thankful that my brokenness has been my biggest blessing thus far. It is the brokenness that has given me a boldness to reach out and bless others. Although I have no idea where this journey will take me... I trust and know that He is leading me somewhere amazing!
Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time. He has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so, people cannot see the whole scope of God’s work from beginning to end. Ecclesiastes 3:11
God bless!
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